One thing that makes this year's assignments difficult to just hold your breath and charge through is the fact that we need a certain amount of time in preparation for our assignments. They require either a time period of observation before analysis, a series of video recordings (each being at least 20mins long), or interviewing someone not dirrectly connected to school. Not to mention that we still have other regular common tests,essays and weekly submissions to take care of. Feels overwhelming. An all too familiar feeling. But I pulled through before, just hope I can say the same again.
Saw Sher and Winston under going gym-orientation the other day while I was gyming with lukky. They didn't see me cos I was lying down on the bench and hidden by a pillar, but I saw them as I entered. Looking forward to gyming with them soon. I won't be surprised if Sher suddenly deadlifts 100kg or so...she has a swimmers bod since young and isimpressively strong for a girl even though she's slim.
Unsure what else to write...
Hmmm.... now i'm just thinking how it feels like I've gained a lot, but have lost almost all I used to be. Ironically slow-fade by casting crowns was always one of my favourite songs back in sec scl. "people never crumble in a day"- a phrase that is repeated on and on again throughout the song. Guess that what happens when I get sucked into the context of the song without paying attention to what's in between the lines.
I know I've got a lot of work to do... But I just don't feel like it. Sighs....
Its such a familiar feeling of wishing I could just go to sleep and never wake up... Now that I think about it, I think I remember why I walked away from God in the first place. I was praying for months to die and escape this world. When I didn't die literally, I got mad at God... Wow I'm such a mess up.
~+~Feeling quite restless now~+~
Perhaps I'll go sleep for a bit. maybe thats just what I need..z zz z z z zzzzZZZZZZZZZZ Z Z ZZZZZ
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