As time progresses, I learn more about myself; by seeing the things that influenced my personality development as an individual, as well as the traits others possess in which I differ. Some things about myself that not many would agree to all.


-I love Slow rock/ Soul/ Death Metal/ 80s and 90s Love songs.
-I find being alone more desirable when I'm in isolated places.
-I find being alone less desirable when I'm in a populated place.
-Music is my best friend; it understands me because I get to choose what I listen to and thus define the personality of music based on my own egocentric tastes.
-I like people trusting me but I dislike trusting people
-I get depressed easily when I fail to live up to my own expectations, do things that disconcert my morals, feel stressed, compare myself to people I feel more dominant than me in a skill or field I find admirable.
-I find a profoundly distinct favor for conversing with girls indirectly but feel a deep underlying hatred and mistrust when I converse face-to-face.
-I need affirmation often to feel significant.
-I feel I lose my value as an individual when not positively acknowledged by others to be more efficient at a skill valued to them.
-I hate all people in general but feel a distinct closure to the few people in my social circle.

My point is...
Who I am will never be fully approved or similar to others. In that sense, trying to be me will never feel alright. I guess that is why I'm such a loner. Also because I find it hard to find acceptance of values in others that contradict my own, even if morality does not favor either.
At least I'm learning more about myself...