I don't know why, maybe the trauma of WGR still haunts me a bit; which is weird cos I still talk to racheal just fine, and am on neutral terms with Wil*** and got Gr*** off every contact list I had....
I still feel weird, like everytime I get into a lift with a girl alone, I feel anxious and nervous and somewhat even scared. Which is weird cos I consciously tell myself a girl alone with me in a lift can't possibly do anything to harm me in 30 seconds. Yet my heart rate increases, I feel fear running through me. Why am I suddenly talking bout this? Its been ongoing since I can remember and I expected it to go away already, yet I just took the NP blk 52 lift with a female student and I felt myself getting anxious again.... Its so frustrating. In campus, I'm surrounded with lots of female students, majority of my class and course are also girls, and the anxiety never seems to die. I get scared of groups of girls as well, and especially when I can't avoid it (lift, classroom, bus seat. anywhere that puts me in close proximity with a girl.)
Would be nice if I never became friends with G**** or W*****.
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