The last time I shut my eyes, I couldn't believe what I later saw

Things have been rough as always. During the school-term, my body takes its toll from the workload. During the holidays, the anxiety of not knowing what to expect takes its toll on my mind. Most people are enjoying their holidays now; I don't understand how they seem to do it all. But I'm just worried about results, the new work-load to expect in next semester, and all the little things no one cares about that eventually pile-up.

I pray everyday to get to get to go back home and leave behind this mess. But that prayer is never answered...I feel so alone...