Life's been interesting lately.I feel like I want to be better in every attribute I ever had before and every attribute I never did.Even tried to learn telekinesis(maybe its just not meant for me.).I do believe it exists,I just don't think I'm suppose to learn it (yet).Cos when I started out,I said this to God,"Lord,If you will me to not learn this now,I pray that I won't succeed."Anyway,its unofficial science not dark magic,just requires alot of focus and training over time.(No one can lift 200 lbs if they have never touched 10lbs)
Anyway,I'm longing for wisdom above alot of other attributes.I've started to realise over the past many months that no attribute can be used effectively or for any good if wisdom is not present in using it.Without wisdom,no man can learn to maintain strengh or find a good use for it.Without wisdom,what intelligence can be put to use for the greater good.Without spiritual wisom in check,how close to God can a boy grow to without the greed for every other attribute in the way.
I hope I'm growing in wisdom,and not just confuscious wisdom,I want to grow in spiritual wisdom.
Life at 333 is getting interesting(when its good and/or bad).All the part timers that taught me there are almost completely gone.Im now just about a senior here but of rather few ppl.I have church friends now working in the hotel and one of them wants to transfer from pine court to 333.She just told me today.But gotta see how it goes,have to arrange with the A.Ms.They are starting to lack work force already,especially for morning.Now I have two ppl over me sort of duking it out with each other every work day im there for my errands.one of my captains wants me to do placemats and all the odd jobs that needs during asap,and one of the A.Ms wants me to stay at the bar counter to prepare drinks and push them etc...
oh wells.off day now,soon to enter poly and I'm looking forward to it with the fear of loneliness in the corner of my bagpack.(I know I know;"make new friends".But I can't really open up to new acquaintances just like that...takes lots of time in-between.)Oh wells...:) I guess I really appreciate my other BB primer dudes(and dudets) for being just a phone call away,and most I can talk to.Also really appreciate these ppl,(you should be able to identify your own coded name when you read this)for being someone that time has shown to be among the ones I can open up to most.[aDrrly, iWelne, aJictnah, aSamtnah, nArdae, aDinle]
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